Last Friday, we had our 20 week ultrasound to determine our baby's gender. I actually wanted to find out early, at 12 weeks, with the blood test...However, my husband encouraged me to have patience and wait till 20 weeks. This was so hard for me. I have an extreme sense of urgency, and want everything right now. I'm a very proactive person, and when something needs to get done, I just do it. Waiting didn't make sense to me in the least Paying the $200 to find out early certainly did at the time. But I patiently waited for eight more weeks. Then the day finally came. I was so nervous and very emotional last Friday as we headed up to the doctors office to find out the sex. I starting crying for many reasons, and very few of them could be explained through words.
I was laying on the table feeling very nervous, as the tech started the ultrasound. She confirmed our little baby's heartbeat and movements, and then she showed us on the screen, the thighs and buttocks, then pointed to and empty area between the legs and said "I'm assuming it's a girl!"
Charlie and I were both shocked. Neither said anything at first. I just looked at him puzzled. All along, he was just so sure that our baby would be a boy. We kept calling it him, had determined his name, had decided that his nursery would be a firetruck theme, etc. We had even bought him some darling little boy outfits. Charlie just knew he'd have someone to tinker around the garage with.
In my state of shock, I immediately began to worry that Charlie was disappointed. I felt excited, but then I began to pre-worry about all the emotions and drama that go along with being a girl, much less having a girl.
I decided to pray. I thanked God for blessing us with a healthy child. I thanked him over and over that she was a girl. I prayed that I would have a bond with my daughter and no one could ever understand or trump. I also prayed that this little girl would continue to soften my husband's heart. I knew she would be the center of our lives and the most important thing in our world forever.
I went shopping for her that afternoon (at Ross, of course) and began to think, "Maybe I need to step it up a notch...She deserves only try best. Ha! "I got a few little baby girl outfits for her, and got really excited. I could tell Charlie got excited too! He even sent me this...
Nearly every hour of every day since the moment I found out, I close my eyes and picture my daughter smiling at me as a baby, and talking to me to as a toddler. I envision her running to her Daddy when he gets home, just overjoyed to see him and be in his arms.
As we dream of what life will be like, and brainstorm to carefully determine what her name will be, there's so much to do in order to prepare for her arrival!
In our now 2 bedroom home, we are losing our guest bedroom/office to create her nursery. We are currently getting bids to convert our attached 1 car garage into a 3rd bedroom and 2nd bathroom. Then we will still be able to work from home productively, and accommodate our guests that come to visit.
Knowing that we are having a daughter, and that she is on her way is the most exciting feeling I have ever experienced. Knowing that she will look like Charlie and I both, and will have combinations of both of our personality traits is so nerve wracking and also exciting! Let's hope she has my giving heart and creativity, but his good looks, and tough like him. This is a very joyous time in our lives, so much so, that I've forgotten to include a fit or thrifty tip in this blog. Ha! Oh well!
I suppose this is a special post, all about my little angel, and nothing else!
The best part is being so warm and relaxed afterwards and being able to just crawl into bed at home, smelling of lavendar...
